-From Paul-

when i was 10 or so i saw a mountain dew commercial. in it they showed a close up of a guy doing a kickflip on a skateboard. my eyes just lit up. "i need to learn to do that". so i asked my mom for a skateboard. "no.
youll get hurt". i was crushed. i begged. "no, youll break something". i gave up.

my birthday rolled around and my grandma (Virginia) invited me and my mom up for cake and presents. the last present i opened was the biggest. so i opened it quick! it was a skateboard! my first skateboard. i was so excited. and my mom was so mad. (apparantly grandma went behind moms back) i have a picture of the moment. im so happy..and my grandma is behind me...so happy...so proud. she made my mom mad...but she didnt care at all because she made me happy.

stubborness can be a bad thing. unless its a stubborness that says i love you...and im going to show it no matter what people think. and thats my grandma. stubborn. but so full of love. so full of grace.

heaven may be perfect...but i know its much better now that my grandma is there. and i can let her go, knowing that i havent held anything back. i havent left one word unsaid. and i know she hasnt either. ill miss her..but the pain and confusion is enough. its time for peace.


ps...almost 20 years of skateboarding and thousands of kickflips but NO broken bones. thanks Grandma.